I think for the first time I realized how lonely I am. I've always liked my space and solitude. I've never minded being alone and I thought that I liked the idea of being single for a little while longer, so I could focus on my school... But, I find myself as being lonely now.
This cute boy who is crazy sweet made me realize how lonely I was. I found myself wanting so desperately for things to become more between us though we hardly know each other and the chances of him liking me in my eyes seem slim... I don't expect people to like me. That desperateness to love and be loved by someone became so apparent though and I don't like it. I don't want to be desperate for love, I want it to come and go as it wishes without trying to force it into being. Since that man and I don't really know each other I don't have any right to expect anything of him and I don't, but oh how I crave it.
I don't want to be in a relationship for the sheer joy of attention and to show him off to everyone like "Hey! Look what I caught!". I want to be in a relationship because I simply and truly just want someone to love... I want to show someone how they are someone else's entire universe, how they are truly and purely loved by someone. I want someone to share my memories with, the good, the bad and even the silent moments. I want them to share their moments and memories with me to. I want someone to love, someone to care for. I want someone to make me feel like I'm important to them, that I matter and if I were to leave they would feel my absence, like I would feel theirs. I want someone's hand to hold as we walk through this life.
....I want someone to love.
I think for the first time I realized how lonely I am. I've always liked my space and solitude. I've never minded being alone and I thought that I liked the idea of being single for a little while longer, so I could focus on my school... But, I find myself as being lonely now. This cute boy who is crazy sweet made me realize how lonely I was. I found myself wanting so desperately for things to become more between us though we hardly know each other and the chances of him liking me in my eyes seem slim... I don't expect people to like me. That desperateness to love and be loved by someone became so apparent though and I don't like it. I don't want to be desperate for love, I want it to come and go as it wishes without trying to force it into being. Since that man and I don't really know each other I don't have any right to expect anything of him and I don't, but oh how I crave it. I don't want to be in a relationship for the sheer joy of attention and to show him off to everyone like "Hey! Look what I caught!". I want to be in a relationship because I simply and truly just want someone to love... I want to show someone how they are someone else's entire universe, how they are truly and purely loved by someone. I want someone to share my memories with, the good, the bad and even the silent moments. I want them to share their moments and memories with me to. I want someone to love, someone to care for. I want someone to make me feel like I'm important to them, that I matter and if I were to leave they would feel my absence, like I would feel theirs. I want someone's hand to hold as we walk through this life. ....I want someone to love.
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